Ok So I've had a crazy, hectic, drama-filled month....and that is just to say the least.
My grandpa passed away which really entered me into a state of chaos. I've always been the baby of the Grandkids and have been really close to him. I never got to be colse with my grandma like Courtney did because she had developed Alzheimers before I was old enough to remeber her. So being the amazing man he was, PawPaw took me under his wing and made sure I was just as spoiled as everyone else...maybe a little more :) Losing him was another hard thing to add to my already hard life.
To add to all of that craziness....my ex-boyfriend decided to be stupid. We had been trying to work things out so I was still in contact with him some. He knew about PawPaw and even came to visitation...granted he never spoke a word to me. He texted a few days after to see if I was ok and still managed to talk some. This is when he decides to tell me that he really misses me, made a mistake, should have treated me better, and wants to make up for everything. And me...since I did care for him...decided to believe him. HUGE Mistake!!
Now before I continue, let me give you a history of our relationship. In the 6 months we were dating, I heard EVERY detail of his relationship with his ex. She was too clingy, too controlling, didn't give him any freedom, her parents were crazy, she didn't like his friends. I also was lucky enough to get to spend Easter with his whole family. The complaints rolled in again. They thought I was prettier, smarter, better for him, and my family was sane (which how they figure that I'll never kno :]) His mother even sat and told me she didn't like her but it was her son's choice so she left it up to him. Well after hearing this for 6 months I thought ok wow they really were a horrible couple.
Now 3 days after he tells me that he misses me, he tells me that he can't decide what to do. He doesn't know whether to choose me or his ex!! I mean, are you freakin serious?? So, I allow him time to think. I figured he had just realized that he needed to grow up and get serious about a relationship and it scared him a little...understandable because my dad was the same way. Well he finally chooses me! Said he wanted nothing to do with her and wants me and only me. I said ok we'd work on it and he had to get back to work. Gets off work and come to find out he heard that his ex wouldn't date him anyway and what does he do?? Calls her and asks her!!!
I know you're thinkin I'm stupid for listening to him and I agree. I thought he could change but apparently was wrong. And after that he thought I'd still want him....he couldn't comprehend that he'd screwed up his last shot with me. He said I was lying about stuff to get him to pick me...seriously I didn't want him that bad.
Well I was in Abbeville yesterday. Seeing about a job and visiting some of my family. I was at my Aunt's store at the backwater...which is right down the road from his ex's house. As I was heading back to town I drive by her house and low and behold he's there. I was rolling in my car at his stupidity. And then found out today he actually took her on a real date...I mean movies and dinner! In the 6 months we dated I never got that. Every weekend was spent out on the dirt road with His Friends or sitting at my house. Was dinner and a movie to much to ask for??
Anyway, I just had to get all of this out. The person I usually vent to didn't have time to listen to me...not really surprising though. I just can't comprehend how people can be soo stupid. You and your family dog the poor girl for 6 months and you go back to her? I'm just quietly sitting around waiting for the day she screws him over again and for him to text me. I will be sooo happy to say yea I told you so.
